In a Funk.....Time to get out!

I can't believe it has been 2 weeks since I have blogged. I will start with the fact that I have been in kind of a workout funk. One of my friends at CrossFit wrote about being in a funk earlier this week and I asked her if I could steal her blog, change names, and publish it as my own. She expressed the exact feelings that I had been having, bad food choices, hard workouts, feelings of inadequacy, just yuck. Check it out here: http://fightingmyinnerfatkid.wordpress.com/ Jess is a wonderful woman, strong and in inspiration. I felt so validated that someone else was feeling this way.
Yesterday I went into workout for the first time this week. After that, I felt amazing. Funk is lifting and I am looking forward to what is coming up in the next few weeks.

So, about the last two weeks. Last week was Valentine's and that is a very busy time for me. I was crazy all day on Monday getting things ready to deliver on Tuesday morning. My back was killing me because of the stress and the way I was standing. Tuesday when I went in to workout, I had to leave right as we were starting to warmup stretch, I pulled my knee into a knee hug and my back seized up. I ended up rolling out and walking the whole rest of the workout. I hoped that by Wednesday morning it would start feeling better. When it didn't I made an appointment for a massage on Thursday. I did Thursday's strength workout and then went to see her. She thinks that I may have a small tear in one of the muscles in my back. I am going to see my orthopedist next week to have it looked at. She found so many knots and kinks in my back that is was crazy. I am going to go back every few weeks to get things where they are supposed to be. The rest of that night I felt better, Friday was worse, Sat and Sun ok, and since then it has been getting better.

I have also started cooking for people at the gym who are doing the challenge. That started on Monday of this week. I didn't workout on Monday because I got an awful night of sleep and I just wasn't up for it. (I have to not beat myself up for this and am learning). I cooked all day on Monday, except when I took a lunch break to get a new part time job (then my mom cooked too!), and was up until 11:30. When I got up on Tuesday morning to workout, I knew my body could not handle it. So I took Sarah in, delivered food, and took a nap in my car. I really think that my body was telling me to take it easy and that is partially why my back is feeling better.

Back in the gym on Thursday.
Thursday's WOD
Level Two
Strength/Make Up Day
A. Cleans x1x5 85-90% or 9-10 RPE Rest 2:00
B. CDL x3x5 @ 66% of DL Rest 3:00
C1. Front Squat x4-5×3 80-85% Rest :60
C2. DB Snatch x5/armx3 Rest :60

Cleans at 75#, Clean deadlifts at 155#. I should have done those at 135 since my DL is 205# and that is 66%, but the 155# felt good so I kept it. Hopefully this means that my DL will go up the next time we do them :)
Front squat 75#, DB Snatch 20#.

Bear with me through a few stories that have happened the last few days. First, I am getting smaller in my upper body faster than my lower body, so my vneck shirts are plunging lower than I really want them to when I workout. I purchased an undershirt to wear with them, yesterday it was so hot and humid in the gym that I just took off my tshirt and left the undershirt. I will tell you that I felt fine doing this and I would not have felt this way a month or so ago. When I got home I put on a tank top that I bought last summer with a pair of jean capri's that I squeezed myself into last summer, the jeans zipped right up, and that top that bunched on my hips last summer, just swooshed down my hips. Nice :)

A few night ago this guy was telling me about his friends who workout. "They think they are all that, buff and everything. The problem is that they only work out with their upper body, I could walk up and kick their legs right out from under them with no problem. I hope you are working your lower body also when you CrossFit" I told him "I can back squat 155#, I think I am good" His mouth just dropped open, and he said "Wow". I loved it and said, "See you later"

A few other realizations have come up, things that a lot of people take for granted and don't even realize that they can do or that they have....I can now write on my lap, I have a lap to write on. My husband can come up and wrap his arms around my waist and pull me much closer than he could before. I can move the car seat up close enough to not drive with my tiptoes because my belly is not so close to the steering wheel, I sometimes look in a mirror and say "well, hello :)" My calves are getting skinny and different muscles are showing in them. My rings are starting to fall off of my fingers and the bracelet that I have been wearing since summer is dangling instead of just residing in my chubby wrist.

My body is changing. Not as fast as I want it, but it really is happening. I know I have been posting about smaller sizes, and weight lost, but my brain has not caught up as fast as my mouth. I am actually seeing it through my eyes, and my brain is recognizing it. No longer telling me that it is taking too long, not happening, etc. My crappy self image is probably going to rear its ugly head from time to time, but I have a great support group in my friends and family cheering me on.

Thanks for that.